Everything has a purpose

everything has a purpose...

i wonder whether this is true. i certainly hope so haha. cuz whenever i make decisions, i always keep looking back to see whether i made the right choice, and it kind of gives me lots of regrets which isn't exactly a good feeling.

i think i'm rather weird. i have 2 types of emotions usually.

The first type was the kind epitomised by the november holidays last year and something that i have been feeling these few days. This is the "damn sian" feeling where you feel like there is nothing to do. But then, you just don't have the mood to do anything except maybe watch drama (which i've been doing so often these few days) and the dramas somehow don't make you that happy after all cuz it makes you either sad because of the sad plot or just soooo envious about their lives. Neither of which are really good feelings.

The second type was the type I felt during term 2. It's the type which you feel when you see a week ahead where from mon to sat you return home at 9pm everyday and wake up at 6am everyday and sunday is the only day you can mug so basically there's no free time. It's okay when you're doing things that you like to do but when there are things that you don't like to do, it just isn't a good feeling.

I guess I need to balance the two.

And i need to find out what makes me happy and start doing more of that (:

I'll find a way to do it (:

all right all right. so anyway today was quite a slack day. chem lecture was rather simple. phy lecture was a little harder but physics to me has always been a go-home-and-mug subject so i guess not understanding much during lectures doesn't matter that much.

chem ct was rather good i guess but i figured i was rather lucky as well. so no point boasting about it.

GP was a little late in the day so my attention started to divert away...

oh yeah, got A*Star Scholarship. Hope the attachment will be fun like in sec 3. Pity there's no one to do project with. It's always better to have a group of friends around you (: but hmm david is going too. hope i can see him (:

Patrick