i wonder...

I wonder whether I should always be helpful
I wonder whether I should always be generous
I wonder whether I should always be good

I wonder whether I'll become like my late conductor
I wonder whether I'll become like my external mentor...

I always thought that they were my role models
And so was Keng Chee...

But is it good after all?
When people start taking advantage of you...

Is there a limit to how much you should help?
Is there a limit to how generous you should be?
Is there a limit to how good you should be?

I'm confused...
And envious
But at the same time helpless...

Is friendship really worth that much of a sacrifice?

I wonder...

Patrick Cho