zzz...

Sigh.

So much for getting high grades, i feel so pressurized and down now...

Sometimes I look around and see others complain about their GPA. Secretly, I'd tell myself, could I change my GPA with you for the ability to play the violin, or the ability to play a sport that I suck in or something else...

All the time, I mug for tests, peaking at the right time but forgetting everything right after it and i ask myself, why do you even do this? Why don't use the time for something more productive? But I can't get myself to not study. The thought of screwing up a test to go do something you like and probably more benefitial sounds... i dunno so not right...

haix. And I think I'm too particular about some things...

ok so much for "metacognization".

zzz. the following weeks are all mugging sessions. only thing to look forward to would be RICO concert but even that seems to be something that is gonna screw up.

I'm gonna do a reflection of me being an SL some time later after I'm done with RICO but I really wonder whether I've been a good SL. Lots of people don't seem to think so and sometimes I wonder what I'm doing too. Maybe I'm too lenient, maybe I'm too particular about not breaking friendships.

but concerts in 3 weeks, even less in fact. None of us including me have played through a piece perfectly. Sigh. I don't even know what I'm doing...

all right. nvm. Let's just concentrate one thing at a time, starting with tomorrow's Bio quiz. it's day-by-day style of living from now to end of EOYs again. hate this lifestyle.

i need to try something out... something new. life's getting boring...

nvm. for now, studies... and don't think so much about getting suanned.

bye!

Patrick